I’ve realized that I’m co-dependent. Really co-dependent.There are so many things I can’t stand about myself. When I do something wrong, even if it’s small, I beat myself up over it mentally. My brain screams, “Look at that, you’re a failure. You just keep screwing up. I can’t stand it when anyone around me is upset because it makes me upset, too. It makes me upset because I desperately want to be able to make them feel better, and I feel incredibly guilty if I can’t. I feel like I should know what to say to someone to make them happy, and when I can’t do that, I end up feeling just as miserable as they do. I’m constantly waiting for things in my life to go wrong, to go back to the crappy life I “deserve.” I feel like everything that goes right in my life is just God teasing me, and that eventually he’s going to just snatch it away from me, PROVING that I never deserved it in the first place. I can’t be assertive to anyone because I’m so worried that I’m going to do something wrong. I can’t object to anyone’s opinions because I’m afraid I’ll look like an idiot and the other person will hate me. taken from a post on emptyclosets.com
Beliefs create reality.