This morning at my regular Saturday Codependents Anonymous meeting I talked about past suffering from the sexual compulsion, a somewhat less severe form of sexual addiction. Alcoholics drink, drug addicts drug, food addicts eat and sex addicts screw. That’s a callous word, but it accurately describes what I was guilty of: using sexual activity devoid of love and emotion as a way to stop feeling bad or depressed. As I look back it’s easy to see how hard I tried in all other aspects of my life to over achieve as a counter balance for my behavior. Somehow it seemed if I could be impeccably honest, successful, giving, righteous, helpful, spiritual and caring in all other aspects of my life it would make up for my compulsions regarding sex and the lies and deceit that came with that behavior. What did I learn? Nothing makes up for bad behavior! Absolutely NOTHING! Bad is bad. Wrong is Wrong.
It takes less time to do a thing right
than it does to explain why you did it wrong.
Henry Wadsworth Longfellow